Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Real World [Poem]

I want to do more than just exist.

I want my senses to be awoken from boredom
by gazing and listening to novelty.
I want my mind to drown
in an ocean of wonder.
I want the bag of my memories
to be overflowing with rich experiences.
I’m a hero waiting for his legend to begin
and I’m starting to get a little impatient.
I’m a child of the stars with a body made of dust
and I want to feel close to home.
I have an intense appetite for life
and if I don’t satisfy it I’m gonna go mad.

I want to do more than just exist
I want to feel really and truly alive.

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No.
Listen, kid:
You need to pull up your strap
and cram your nose into those schoolbooks.
Study - HARD - so you can get a degree
then work - HARD - so you can pay off your debt,
and then when you're old ' n' wrinkly
looking back on those silly fantasies of yours
realize: Life is HARD, okay?
It's Harder than stone, & heavier too.
And if you don't HARDEN your heart
it will shatter under the sheer weight
of all the disappointments.
Wake Up and realize you're in the REAL WORLD now, okay?

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Real World... Real Life...
Real life is hard.
It's like a concrete wall.
I can just almost touch my Dream World
and Real Life is that concrete wall that separates me from it.
Looking at my happiness from a distance
the contrast between this real world and that ideal world is immeasurable.
I hate that concrete wall.

I'm sorry, okay?
I can't stop thinking about my dreams.
They're irresistible.
Oh! Oh! I know!
I'll just imagine harder.
Imagination is the sanctuary where I will hide
from the shadows that concrete walls cast over my life.
Turn the real world into a blur
into a lie....

But that's no way to live!!
I'm sick of living in these two worlds..
one boring world around me
one blissfully ignorant world inside me!
No!
I wipe the dream out of my eyes
and I look at the concrete wall clearly.
I know how to overcome it.
Yes.
Really, I've known it all along.
It's not "belief"
It's not "wishing"
To break down concrete walls,
and make the inner and outer worlds one

I need to make my will harder.